The Minds Metamorphosis

I am autistic, have Complex PTSD, severe generalized anxiety and Bipolar one. I have a unique mind that has endured great hardships but every gift has a curse so those with the greatest hardships have the most gifts. I realized religion did not serve me and why I transitioned to Agnostic-Atheist. I don't know the answers but I don't believe anyone knows any ultimate answers. I know my art has carried me through the bowels of hell when undiagnosed with these hardships and still obtained a BA in E